Cut and Paste, Start Again ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- conversation Her: It�s true, one of the things that I notice about how I feel about Gabriel is that I constantly want to talk to him even about mindless everyday things. I get that way about people a lot, thinking that they�d appreciate something, I just wanting to say �Hi.� Me: Exactly� I mean, one of the things that hurts most about losing someone really is that feeling that you lost a piece of yourself with them� it�s that realization that part of you is gone and no matter how hard you try you�ll never be able to recreate that part with someone else. You�ll never experience yourself as the person that you became when you had that other to respond to. Her: Yes� But also, the possibility of the future you saw with them. You lose the vision that you had of who you could have become in their company. Me: Indeed�You find yourself mourning the death of a future self that you never had the chance to become. It�s a hard thing to let go of. Probably even harder than letting go of the other person is, is letting go of that idealized version of who you would have been standing beside them. 14:14 - 08 June 2008 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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